Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Life is Too Short

Life is too short. Put your happiness on hold for no one. Be you and be happy. People just have to deal with the consequences of the decisions that you make for yourself during this pursuit of life. I will not ever put my happiness on hold for anyone ever again. It's rare that you meet people who are just real, honest, and not selfish. I want all of my relationships to be pure and organic. It seems like everyone is out for self, and no one cares about how they affect people's lives. Humans can be so weak. They can't deal with change, failure, grief, etc. That's why we have an alcohol and drug problem all over the world, and I don't think there is any way to fix it. Everyone is in denial lol. Crazy. Be strong! This is life. It has it's up and downs. Only the strong can weather the storm.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Back in Business

Thank god. I'm back in NY. I was so excited about my trip to LA, and staying at the London (Thanks, Robyn for telling me to stay there...your intuition must have kicked in LOL). Last night was cool. I enjoyed the BET Awards festivities. I had a little bit too much bubbly. We ended up at the Beverly Hills Hotel for drinks for an impromptu power meeting. There is such a difference being around men who have their shit together and those who don't. They treat you completely different. I had a long conversation with one of them, and he said, "I appreciate a strong, independent woman when I see one." His comment came out of no where, but the timing was so appropriate. I took a few days by the pool to get my mind right, now I am back in business. FOCUS!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Let Your Conscience Guide You

Good morning, Everyone! I had a good night's sleep. For the past two days, I have slept so well. That is what clarity will do for you. It literally clears your mind. Some people pray before they go to sleep, but I pray when I wake up. Every morning, I am so thankful that I am still here, and I am healthy. I pray to give me strength. Sometimes, I have to pray my way out of the bed because I just don't want to get up. I'm tired. For the past two years, I have been working so hard, but I have yet to reach my goals. And, I know why? I have engaged in situations that were against my conscience and moral code. I have given certain people energy who do not deserve it. I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that I did not grow up with my Father, but he is my life now, and I appreciate him so much. He is here so that I can learn from his mistakes and be a product of his wisdom, and I'm listening. Despite his failures, he is one of the most beautiful people that I know. He is so sweet, and such a beautiful spirit, and that's all that matters in life (Not money or status). My greatest fear in life is that my poor decisions will hinder me, but I think my failures and short comings make me who I am. I just have to learn from them so that I can be a better person. I want to live a simple and honorable life.

Saturday, June 27, 2009


I am still waiting for Robyn. I might as well get ready for today. Last night, I fell asleep in the car on the way to the club-just say you can only get it in Cali lol. Now, I'm getting sleepy. I have been drinking all day by the pool, and I think the sun has me beat. The door man had to give me a Red Bull because I kept yawning.

I'm having a good time in L.A, but I can't wait to get home. The work has piled up, and I have something to look forward to :-) It's funny how sometimes you don't appreciate the things that are right in front of your face.

Today Was a Good Day

I had the best time today. Robyn is on her way. We're going to get into something. I met a lot of cool people randomly. The bathing suit was a smash hit lol. Free drinks all day so I'm slightly twisted.

Beautiful Day!

Today, it's beautiful outside. I left my phone in Amanda's car last night, and that's a good thing. I have this adorable bathing suit and I'm about to go and chill by pool and get my tan on. I admit...I can't wait to get back to New York. I have some much to look forward to. I haven't been able to say that in a long time.

Friday, June 26, 2009

First Day in LA (Bet Awards Weekend)

Chilling in my hotel room after going to an event. I met up with DJ Jam X. That's the homie for real. All of my big brothers had my back today.

I didn't get much sleep last night. I'm listening to, "Can't Help It" by Michael Jackson over and over again. I can't wait to fall in love again (in time). :-)

My old intern, Amanda, is coming to pick me up in about an hour. She is so excited to see me. It amazes how many people look up to me. I'm still working on myself-everyday. That's what life is about. No one is perfect, but not strive for it? I will post later when I get back....

Blogging Frenzy

Writing has always been therapy for me, but I took the blogs down. My friends reminded me of a very special fact. I'm sure he's going to call me crazy, out of my name, etc. anyways. That is what sorry dudes do when shit hits the fan, RIGHT? I had to get it out. I'm tried of living a lie and fronting. If I can't be 100% and real about it, I don't want to be in it. I will continue to walk with my head HIGH, and be good to those that are good for me. The haters, users, and manipulators, etc. I will just stay clear of them.

Thank you!

I've been getting calls left and right from the East Coast. It's good to know that people care about me! People who have known me for years and know what I am about. I don't care about anyone thinks anymore. I'm strong and relentless, and this past year has only made me stronger! I'm not biting my tongue anymore, and if people don't like me because of it so be it.

Thursday, June 25, 2009


I'm up! I had difficulty getting up this morning. That always happens when I have a lot on my mind. I honestly feel like I am doing too much, and I decided that I need to focus on one or two things. Anyways, I'm headed to L.A. for the BET Awards weekend. A client is sending me out there. I'm excited because I'm staying at the London in West Hollywood. I'll keep you posted on my activities! It should be a interesting weekend.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Party at Citrine

I'm actually in the mood tonight to go out and have a good time. I had a fabulous day despite the rain. I worked out. I'm focused again. For the past week, I had been working on the I AM Concert Launch Party at M2 Lounge, but Beyonce called it off, and I was really disappointed. I'm positive now; hopefully an opportunity like that will come my way again.

Friday, June 19, 2009


Today, I had dinner with my Sorority Sister, Winifred. I had a good time. We had a good discussion. It was a blessing. I hear you, Wini. Now, I'm at home chilling three drinks later. I'm so buzzed, and I deserve it. I'm tight all week-I don't go out unless I'm working. I went so hard this week, and it has to pay off. I did not work this hard in law school. Damn!

I'm just chilling listening to music-Mobb Deep. When I DJ I cannot play the shit that I really like. Damn it. Oh well, I am learning not to DJ for myself. Today was pretty hectic, but it was good and positive. I had a few light bulbs go off. LOL. Brilliant plans....I love when I come up with something strategic. Well, I think I am going to relax now. It's 12:20 am...I'll start writing more, but I have been grinding (no time to write). Pray for me. I really want to be successful, and there has to be a way to do it without working for someone else.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


Love will come in time for now I am focused on my business.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Dinner with BlogXilla

I just finished having dinner with BlogXilla. It was interesting having dinner with a sex columnist. I admit I wanted to ask him questions, but I held back. Let's keep it business. I was so intrigued that I went to his site called www.blogxilla.com. As usual, I work so much that I don't have time to read other people's blog nevertheless write in my own. I admit I have never trouble in that department-not enough to ask someone for help. The funny thing is that I work so much that sex is just not a priority like it used to be. As a result, the S word has become more sacred.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Today Began with Positivity

This morning I got an email from someone that I love very much. It read:

My wish for you is that you succeed beyond your wildest imagination. That you find love in places that astound you. And that you have friends who call you "just because." I dream that you go barefoot more than you wear shoes. That you play as hard as you work. And that you laugh more than you cry. I want you to set the bar high, but not too high. To reach for the stars, but with your toes on the ground. And to never, ever stop dreaming. But most of all I wish for your happiness.

This is the sweetest message that I ever received, and helped me begin my day with a smile on my face. Then I got a couple of phone calls from people that said that they respect my hustle which means a lot. I work at least 12 or more hours a day following up with calls and emails, working out, etc. I just hope all that all my hard pays off. I know this industry is all about perception, but I keep it real. I sacrificed a lot to do what I love, but hopefully in a year or two I can see the fruits of my labor and continue to build a my legacy