Relaxing Day.

Today, I had a relaxing day. Last night, I wrote a list of things that I wanted to accomplish and what I needed to do in order to achieve my goals. God works in mysterious ways because I got an interesting phone call which could change everything for me. Wow, all you have to do is have faith, and look what happens (cross your fingers for me).

I have to get prepared for my three day hair modeling gig which will actually be a well-needed mini-vacation. Before, I get started I'm taking a nap.

My Day at Lenox Hill Hospital

I as you can see that I am hard-headed because I was told to rest. Last night, I was in the worst pain. I felt so uncomfortable that I couldn't go to sleep. I called my friend, Robyn, who is just a old soul, and asked what I should do because I had the worst slower body cramping and no energy. I'm a very healthy person so I admit that I was starting to panic. All I could think about was not being able to play sports or run again lol. The thought of that terrifies me. Well, Robyn said it would pass but it didn't. By the morning, I didn't know what to do. I called another friend, and she said that I should go to the hospital. I barely could get down the five flights of stairs (I literally had to tackle one step at a time), but I did not want to incur a bill for an ambulance so I got into a taxi and headed to Lenox Hill Hospital which is the best hospital in New York. Normally, in the emergency room, there is a hold time. Well, they immediately put me on the IV and started doing nonroutine testing, ultrasounds, blood work, and all kinds of other stuff. I just started crying. All, I could think is that my family lives half way across the United States and I just don't have the time to deal with this right now. There were all these old haggard people waiting for testing before me, and they pushed me through, and then I started to get more and more concerned and upset. And, to my avail certain factors put my body into shock. I wasn't paying attention at all. With that being said, looks like I'm going to have to slow down and definitely not put myself in nonstressful situations. I guess I know why I have a low tolerance for things that put me out of balance. One of my partners in crime, Natasha came to get me from the hospital. I, now, have to eat full balanced meals (no more cutting corners). Since, the doctor said that I have to "eat, eat"....I decided to begin my first meal at Houstons. Natasha made sure that I got home safe and now I am supposed to be resting...

One More Thing.

I bite my tongue a lot in my blog. Sometimes, I really want to go in, but I keep everything inside. The fact that I bite my tongue is a problem. I internalize everything then I explode. My ex-fiance used to call it the wrath of Nickie lol. Thank god he loved me for who I am (I'll always have your back, D.) I want to keep it very real in my blog. I truly want to talk about how I'm feeling, what I am going through, what I have accomplished, and what I've learned. I can say that I have really gotten to the point where I really don't care what people think. That in itself is a great accomplishment. Therefore, since I don't care what people think, I want to start being much more vocal in my blog.

I know that I mentioned this before but I have been working so hard that I lost sight of what I really wanted and the things that are important to me. For the past year, I have put my happiness on hold for someone else. That's a mistake that I will never make again. You should never put yourself in a situation that is not good for you, hoping it will change. People will continuously waste your time as long as they are appeased without any regard for the affect they have on your life, and then have no idea what they did wrong? (LOL). This can occur in your personal and business life. You have to put yourself first. I have to start putting myself first.

I don't have time for bullshit and excuses. I don't have time for drama. I don't have time for "baggage." And, if anyone brings me bullshit, excuses, drama, and "baggage." You will be nicely cut off from the beginning because I simply don't have the time. I am a firm believer that I have control over my life and happiness, and I am going to start exercising that control and I am not biting my tongue anymore.

Staying In Race

This morning I got a text from someone that said, "Good morning boss stay in the race." That was one of the most profound texts that I have ever received, and it definitely got my attention. Life may be difficult, at times, but you have to keep it moving. My friends, Tamiko, Robyn, Lydia, Akida, and Dale have been a continuous, unconditional support system for me. I've known Tamiko since second grade, surprisingly I haven't changed much and my other friends for years now. I truly appreciate all those long hours listening to me, supporting me, and always reminding me that I deserve the best. I love you guys.

A Year of Blogging (I just realized it)

I think today, while I have some downtime, I'm going to read my blog from the beginning. I have been writing in it for almost a year now. I would be interested to know how I've progressed, what the common themes are, and how I can grow over the next year. The big birthday is approaching and I'm going to embrace it. Here's my birthday party information (Save the Date):

Good Morning-Take 2

I got a good night's sleep last night. It's funny how you sleep well when your mind is clear. My goal is to live my life free of worry, and I am on the right track. Worry just ages you and depletes your energy.

Yesterday, I got a makeover from Mizani. A fresh new hair cut and a relaxer. I tried the natural look but since I workout-it just was not feasible especially if I go to events all the time. The new look is in celebration of my new life and reaching my goal weight. After months of working hard, I am officially back. As a result of the new makeover, Loreal asked me to be in a Mizani model for a 3 day show. If I end up in Hype Hair that would be hilarious....

Today is pretty quiet. I have a few upcoming gigs so I'm going to my practice sets (Thanks DJ SWF for holding me down). I have a meeting, then I think I'm just going to enjoy life in the City. You can follow me on twitter for constant updates.

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