Back in Business

Thank god. I'm back in NY. I was so excited about my trip to LA, and staying at the London (Thanks, Robyn for telling me to stay there...your intuition must have kicked in LOL). Last night was cool. I enjoyed the BET Awards festivities. I had a little bit too much bubbly. We ended up at the Beverly Hills Hotel for drinks for an impromptu power meeting. There is such a difference being around men who have their shit together and those who don't. They treat you completely different. I had a long conversation with one of them, and he said, "I appreciate a strong, independent woman when I see one." His comment came out of no where, but the timing was so appropriate. I took a few days by the pool to get my mind right, now I am back in business. FOCUS!

Let Your Conscience Guide You

Good morning, Everyone! I had a good night's sleep. For the past two days, I have slept so well. That is what clarity will do for you. It literally clears your mind. Some people pray before they go to sleep, but I pray when I wake up. Every morning, I am so thankful that I am still here, and I am healthy. I pray to give me strength. Sometimes, I have to pray my way out of the bed because I just don't want to get up. I'm tired. For the past two years, I have been working so hard, but I have yet to reach my goals. And, I know why? I have engaged in situations that were against my conscience and moral code. I have given certain people energy who do not deserve it. I know a lot of this has to do with the fact that I did not grow up with my Father, but he is my life now, and I appreciate him so much. He is here so that I can learn from his mistakes and be a product of his wisdom, and I'm listening. Despite his failures, he is one of the most beautiful people that I know. He is so sweet, and such a beautiful spirit, and that's all that matters in life (Not money or status). My greatest fear in life is that my poor decisions will hinder me, but I think my failures and short comings make me who I am. I just have to learn from them so that I can be a better person. I want to live a simple and honorable life.

Waiting...

I am still waiting for Robyn. I might as well get ready for today. Last night, I fell asleep in the car on the way to the club-just say you can only get it in Cali lol. Now, I'm getting sleepy. I have been drinking all day by the pool, and I think the sun has me beat. The door man had to give me a Red Bull because I kept yawning.

I'm having a good time in L.A, but I can't wait to get home. The work has piled up, and I have something to look forward to :-) It's funny how sometimes you don't appreciate the things that are right in front of your face.

Today Was a Good Day

I had the best time today. Robyn is on her way. We're going to get into something. I met a lot of cool people randomly. The bathing suit was a smash hit lol. Free drinks all day so I'm slightly twisted.

Beautiful Day!

Today, it's beautiful outside. I left my phone in Amanda's car last night, and that's a good thing. I have this adorable bathing suit and I'm about to go and chill by pool and get my tan on. I admit...I can't wait to get back to New York. I have some much to look forward to. I haven't been able to say that in a long time.

First Day in LA (Bet Awards Weekend)

Chilling in my hotel room after going to an event. I met up with DJ Jam X. That's the homie for real. All of my big brothers had my back today.

I didn't get much sleep last night. I'm listening to, "Can't Help It" by Michael Jackson over and over again. I can't wait to fall in love again (in time). :-)

My old intern, Amanda, is coming to pick me up in about an hour. She is so excited to see me. It amazes how many people look up to me. I'm still working on myself-everyday. That's what life is about. No one is perfect, but not strive for it? I will post later when I get back....

Blogging Frenzy

Writing has always been therapy for me, but I took the blogs down. My friends reminded me of a very special fact. I'm sure he's going to call me crazy, out of my name, etc. anyways. That is what sorry dudes do when shit hits the fan, RIGHT? I had to get it out. I'm tried of living a lie and fronting. If I can't be 100% and real about it, I don't want to be in it. I will continue to walk with my head HIGH, and be good to those that are good for me. The haters, users, and manipulators, etc. I will just stay clear of them.